Starting another trip around the sun

So I've applied to 10+ law firms (and received 4 very nice thanks, but no thanks letters), 2 random office positions, and even 2 positions at the Pinehurst resort. Other than the aforementioned rejection letters I haven't heard anything. It's frustrating in the moment, but I always know it will work out.

I guess what drives me crazy is just not having anything to do. I hate feeling like I'm stalling. So I have to find other projects to do. Like painting my bathroom. Which has proved to be slightly more obnoxious than I thought it would be, but my OCD just wants the clutter outside my bathroom to go away so it will have to be finished soon.

Also, I know there are plenty of things I could do for free. I could go work for the Moore County Dems (heaven knows they need the help) and I could go offer some tech assistance for the new community theatre group in town, I could even do some freelance writing for the Pilot. But at some point I've got to have some income and that's where it gets tricky.

But again I know it will work out and I'm trying to keep that worry level in check.

Yet, there is something very exciting about the uncertainty in it all. I mean really anything is possible. Yes, the plan is still law school and so on and so forth. But right now I mean really I could do anything. And I've always been blessed with the ability to dream and follow what ever I want to, and now is no exception. I mean I could start studying for the LSAT and have a mental break and go "WHAT WAS I THINKING!?"

But you know what. That would be totally okay. I could end up being a baker, something in theatre, heck I even contacted the studio where I danced in high school and she might be looking for some help in her studio teaching a theatre class and a few other things. Who knows where I'll end up by the end of this trip around the sun.

I just finished reading Carol Burnett's biography "This Time Together." In addition to getting completely pumped for her appearance on GLEE, it was just a remarkable book. She lived an incredible life, and followed everyone of her dreams and some how they all met up with her. And really that's all anyone can hope for.

I don't know where I'll be working. I don't know where I'll be going to Law School. IF I go to Law School. But I've always been blessed enough to end up where I belonged...even if I didn't think I belonged there. (Someday, Ask me how I ended up at Meredith.)

I'm 22 and I don't know anything. All I know for certain is that He'll never steer me wrong, and anything is possible.